11/30/2020

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dec is tomorrow. how? theres no way this year is ending this quickly. i want it to, but it doesnt feel real.


11/29/2020

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"someday you will ache like i ache." fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you


11/29/2020

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[deleted, nevermind lol.]. my days are becoming long and uneventful again,,i really don't do anything anymore. when i thought my depression was at its peak last year, i thought, "at least im not losing interest in the things i love!", i feel like i have 0 interests now. everytime i clean my room it becomes messy in the next day, i don't have enough energy to pick a few shirts off of my floor sometimes.
i really just want to be hugged and held. i don't really care if its romantic or not i just REALLY want someone to hold me for hours and let me sleep in their arms :( please.


11/25/2020

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i did everything for you. i ruined everything about myself just to make sure you had a good day.


11/23/2020

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you tried to make love
to my empty womb
tried to stuff me like a doll
with pieces of you



11/21/2020

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i won't quit deleting everything i write as soon as i write it,,i'm so sorry. i just get so regretful and ashamed at what i put on here even though this is suppose to be a safe spot for me. from now on i am going to stop and just let myself vent, i shouldn't be ashamed.
i went to the movies today!! with my grandmother!! i havent seen her in so long so it was very nice getting to spend hours and hours with her :) i even got to see my uncle and cousin! and my grandpa too even though he went to bed as soon as i got to their house ^^ i miss my family,,we will be having thanksgiving soon but my other grandma is very ill and nobody wants to come down because of covid. but i'm okay with having thanksgiving with just my household, i dont mind at all! :)
nico makes me very happy. ^^ he's sleeping on call right now and he is a very loud snorer but i'm just happy to know he's here.



11/20/2020

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11/18/2020

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i made my website pink again! :) pink makes me so happy! i'm sorry i never update this thing.


11/14/2020

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11/13/2020

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feeling:

10:02 AM: [deleted] talked to me yesterday. she knows not to bother me anymore. i want nothing to do with her.
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11/11/2020

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feeling:

i don't feel cared for.
i just want to adore someone.


11/4/2020

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feeling:

i REALLY hate school. it's making me so lonely and miserable. but it's my mothers final choice on where i have to go,,,i hate it. i never have input on anything lol.
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i'm just in a bad mood. everything is pissing me off.
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